30 in 30 December update

1. Lose "30" pounds. (10/30)
2. Get my diabetes under control (0/12)
3. Visit my grandmother at least twice a month (2/24)
4. Read three books for leisure (0/3)
5. Complete three bible studies (0/3)
6. Complete 30 sewing projects (2/30)
7. Learn 3 new crafts (0/3)
8. Complete 30 new scrapbook pages (0/30)
9. Do 30 random acts of kindness (30/30) - helped a family out for the whole month of September, and it looks as if it will continue on for months, also is continually helping a single teenage mom, plus other small random acts...
10. Go on a cruise
11. Complete 12 monthly flylady challenges (0/12)
12. Make a control journal
13. Send out Christmas cards
14. Plan a Christmas gift exchange for Jason's side of the family
15. Have a "sister night" with Veida and Shayda three times (0/3)
16. Learn to make homemade pie crust
17. Learn to make yeast rolls
18. Blog twice a week (7/104)
19. Make caramel apples
19. Get a pair of glasses
20. Go to a pumpkin patch (never had the money or had the money and not a kid to go with)
21. Shop on Black Friday it was just for hats and gloves for the parade of lights, but it was still shopping.
22. Start a new tradition for Thanksgiving and Christmas (2/2) Thanksgiving - we went around the room and told everyone what we were thankful for, cheesy and ordinary maybe, new to us, yes. Christmas - we adopted a child from the angel tree at walmart and bough Christmas for them. This is something I NEED to do each and every year.
23. Have two date nights a month (3/12)
24. Activate and use Etsy Account
25. Raise $10,000 for church in fundraisers ($330/$10,000)
26. Seriously track fertility each month so I can have a child (4/12)
27. Plan a birthday party for Jason, Aaron and Alyssa (1/3)
28. Make/eat breakfast at least 5 times a week (25/260)
29. Pray for 15 mins a day (8/365)
30. Make a weekly budget with Jason and stick to it (0/52)


bolded is being worked on
red is not going to happen
strike out is finished

(side note: did anyone notice that I was missing 10-13 on my last few posts, I only did today because I KNEW I put the christmas card goal, and couldn't find it when I went to make it bold. Silly me.)

The LB Story Part Six

We woke up about 6, Veida was coming with us and she was going to be at my house about 8am....
There were videos we had to watch, so we spent the morning watching them, showering, and being sort of nervous....oh and thirsty, we were unable to drink anything since midnight.

Veida and Nikloas came and picked us up, and we got to the Surgery Center. Checked in, and I went back first.
My nerves were through the roof!!

I stripped down, took a pregnancy test (they wouldn't do the surgery if i was pregnant) and went to get weighed.

I weighed 301. So that means, I lost 5 pounds since the day we set the surgery date. I felt defeated, what is 5 pounds to the 120 I need to lose?

I got put in the bed, the nurses were chit chatting with me, they had all had the surgery already and were giving me encouragement. The Surgeon and Anestisologist came by and said hello, and asked me if I had any questions. I didn't.

While I waited they brought Jason back, he did his thing, then went about getting weighed. He lost 15 pounds. Jerk. lol.

Then we said our goodbyes and they took me back.

Now the last thing I remember is them wheeling me into the room and me looking around thinking, this is a small room.....that was it.

(Jason says he waited for my surgery to be over, the doctor came in and told him how I was and then they took him back, he actually remembers having to get up and move beds and they laid his hands out and then he was asleep)

When I woke up, the nurses kept telling me that I had to get up. Some time passed, I was in and out of it, then they made me move from the bed to a chair. I remember falling asleep again.
Eventually they woke me up telling me that Jason was out of surgery and that I could sleep a little while longer because I had to wait for him to come to.
The last time they woke me up, they said i had to get up to get an xray. I walked int here, my legs super shaky, and had to drink barium. At this point I was very thirsty and when I thought the drink they were going to give me was going to be refreshing, it was gross, I almost puked. lol.
The nurses brought me back to my chair, gave me my contacts, and then I was awake. I saw Jason in the bed across from mine, and he was kicking and waving his arms. The nurses kept telling him to calm down and stop trying to roll over. He wasn't listening, so this itty bitty nurse put the palm of her hand on his forehead, and he calms down. Her words were "It is funny how a 400 man feels like he is being pinned down when I do that"
About an hour later the nurses told me it was time to go, I get up, and hear Jason saying "An 8 an 8 my pain is an 8". I wasn't experiencing any pain...just a little discomfort and pressure.
I climb in the backseat of the car and wait for Jason and Veida. I fall asleep waiting. Apparently he was an hour behind me.
We get home, Veida stays with us for the afternoon. I sleep alot.

Lots of people called to check on us, and Jenna came by to drop off some soups and Popsicles.

We had some gas pressure, and Veida had picked up GasX for us. We had also pulled the mattress off Aaron's top bunk and put it on the floor. Thats where I was staying. And Jason was on the couch.

The next two days we were feeling a bit of the pain, but it wasn't too bad. My issue was I was sore all over. I couldn't figure out why, but then it dawned on me. I was sleeping on the floor, and to get up and down, I used every muscle I had in my body to hold my stomach from having to do all the work, and that made me sore.

Day two we were up and about. They said the more walking we do the better off our gas pain would be.... We went to Costco to walk around and pick up more soup. That was a chore. Man, I have never farted and burped sooooo much in my life. it was crazy, lol.

Day three post op we went to church

Day four post op we went back to costco and picked up a scale.

Day five.....we were still sore, but up and about doing our normal every day things.

Did I mention that I was watching kids this whole time? lol, yeah.....well I got Nikolas back on day 5 but I had Ainsley.....

by the next week we were pretty much good to go.

Here are a few pictures.......

At the surgery center.

Sexy sexy manVeida being mean and eating and drinking in front of me.Nikolas waiting with us in the waiting room.Right before I was taken back to the pre op room.After........that night.

2010 Christmas Questions

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Wrapping paper!! Gotta have it cute with ribbon and such.

2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial and pre-lit. Thats how we roll.

3. When do you put up the tree? typically the day after thanksgiving, but this year we were two days late.

4. When do you take the tree down? Depends on my mood, last year it was the day after Christmas because I was sad about not having a happy holiday season with my sister, but normally New Years day I do a major cleaning after taking down the tree and decorations.

5. Do you like eggnog? not one bit, my grandmother loves it.

6. Favorite gift received as a child? that I can remember, a bike and a baton. Then I was told that when I was two I got a mini piano that I wouldn't leave alone.

7. Hardest person to buy for? Grandma, she is sentimental, however she has everything she needs most the time, and the things she asks for haven't been made since 1979. lol. (does anyone know where to get silky moomoo style actual nightgowns???)

8. Easiest person to buy for? Pretty much the kids.

9. Do you have a nativity scene? Thats a touchy subject...I had one from Avon that my grandmother was going to give me, but it was sold on accident from her storage, a few small ones have been given to me, and I either don't like it, or gave it away.

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? This is my first year to send out cards, I am doing it by snail mail, who doesn't like getting fun mail??

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? I was given a maternity skirt when I was 16. The excuse was, Target doesn't have much transition between the plus size and their maternity sections. It did clearly say "due date" on the tag.....sigh.

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Elf

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? As soon as the December bills are paid for and we have extra cash.....that hasn't happened yet this year.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? sure, i am that person.

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? chocolate covered cherries

16. Lights on the tree (colored or clear)? C.L.E.A.R. ABSOLUTELY!

17. Favorite Christmas song? Oh Holy Night

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay home, and visit local family after we have done our little family Christmas traditions.

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Yes

20. Angel, star or ribbon on top of tree? We have a star

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? One gift on Christmas Eve, and it is always pajamas. Then everything under the tree is wrapped, Santa's gifts have a different paper.

22. Favorite children's Christmas song? I want a hippoopatumus for Christmas

23. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Tacky lawn decorations or colored lights on a tree along with a complet huge hodge podge of crapy ornaments....i.e. my grandmothers tree growing up..

24. Favorite ornament theme or color? Red and Gold

25. Turkey or ham on Christmas day? I think typically, ham.

27. Does anyone in your family dress up as Santa? Ha Ha No.

28. Age you discovered who Santa was? I was roughly 9 or 10, but I had my suspecisons before then.

29. Eggnog, hot chocolate, or apple cider? Hot Chocoate or Cider, depends on my mood.

30. Traditional colors (red and green) or other colors? I am all for matchy matchy colors, red and gree or gold and red or blue and silver, things like that.

31. Do you have any Christmas decorations on your roof? No. I don't have an offical roof, we live in apartments.

32. How does Santa get into your house? Chimney or magic key? Depends on if we have a fireplace or not, either way.

33. Do you prefer gifts or gift cards? Depends on who is shopping for me and how well they really know me.

34. Favorite children's Christmas Cartoon? The traditional Frost the Snowman, Rudolph.....you know the claymation ones.

YOUR TURN!!

This year I get to be one of THOSE people, thanks to shutterfly.com

I have always wanted to be one of those families that sends out a Christmas card. And this year on my 30/30 (30 goals I want to accomplish in my 30th year) one of them was to send out Christmas cards.
I have read several dozen blogs that advertised for the shutterfly.com promotion to bloggers. If you write up a blog for them, spread the word, they will give you 50 free Christmas cards. Who can beat free???
So I went through their site and I saw many styles I love, but this blog I am going to show you only 5 of my favorites. Remember, if you are on my mailing list, you will see one of these again soon!!!
Now to only get a fun picture made......

Without further ado....here is layla's favorite shutterfly cards.


With all said and done about Christmas, I was thinking if there is enough time between now and Christmas, I might have a family calender done as well ... wouldn't that be fun?

Ohhhhh and maybe, get some invitations made for birthdays, thats always fun too......my cousin did this for her daughter and sons birthday, and it made them so personal and cute. Not to mention easy to scrapbook....

crap.

must.
stop.
looking.
at.
shutterfly.com!

Thanksgiving 2010

If I had the time to sit and list all the small things I am thankful for, we would be here all day. The number of things is endless. I can tell you I am thankful for the odder trapping kitty litter in my bathroom, or the invention of the remote controls. but that to me would take away from the point of thanksgiving.
Sure modern conveniences are wonderful, and I would be lost without them, but....I feel this time of season is to reflect on the things I am deeply thankful for. Ponder on these things, and lift my voice to heaven and remind the Lord how wonderfully thankful I am. So in honor of the Thankful Thursdays, I am making my final list, my simple list......the list that will be chiseled into my heart for the rest of the year, and possibly the rest of my life.

My Husband, he is my best friend. My soul mate. My lover. My heart. He takes care of me like no other person ever has, will, or can. I love him.

My family. Yes, all of them. Even though we have had our issues, and or are still going through them....my family has molded me into who I am. I love all of them. Sisters, Mothers, Father, Nephew, Cousins, Aunts and Uncles. I love them.

Jason's Family. Despite what has happened and the recent dramas that have left scars, I am thankful to have learned from them, for those who honestly do, I am thankful for the acceptance they have given me as I enter into their family and take their name. But mostly, I am thankful for Julie, who gives of her time energy and money for just about anyone who needs her. She gives me a friendship beyond the ages, a sisterhood of sorts....she is my bestie!!!

Our Friends. I say our, and not my, because we share them. The friends that have been there through it all, the new ones we made, the ones we lost touch with, casual and best friends.....each soul that has entered into our lives has made an impression into our hearts. Without friends Jason and I would have never met (Thanks again Jennie!)....

My Personal Savior. Last but definitely not least, Jesus Christ. Without Him this life would be lived in vain. Without Him, I would be lost. Without Him, I would be putty in the hands of Satan. He is my source of Strength, my source of Love, and my source of Life. I am nothing without Him. He paid the ultimate price for me. He had me in mind when He hung from the cross and He did it despite of the me who sins, He did it so I can live with Him in Heaven and with that, I am truly THANKFUL.

30 in 30 November Update

1. Lose "30" pounds. (8/30)
2. Get my diabetes under control (0/12)
3. Visit my grandmother at least twice a month (1/24)
4. Read three books for leisure (0/3)
5. Complete three bible studies (0/3)
6. Complete 30 sewing projects (1/30)
7. Learn 3 new crafts (0/3)
8. Complete 30 new scrapbook pages (0/30)
9. Do 30 random acts of kindness (30/30) - helped a family out for the whole month of September, and it looks as if it will continue on for months, also is continually helping a single teenage mom, plus other small random acts...
14. Plan a Christmas gift exchange for Jason's side of the family
15. Have a "sister night" with Veida and Shayda three times (0/3)
16. Learn to make homemade pie crust
17. Learn to make yeast rolls
18. Blog twice a week (6/104)
19. Make caramel apples
19. Get a pair of glasses
20. Go to a pumpkin patch (never had the money or had the money and not a kid to go with)
21. Shop on Black Friday
22. Start a new tradition for Thanksgiving and Christmas (0/2)
23. Have two date nights a month (2/12)
24. Activate and use Etsy Account
25. Raise $10,000 for church in fundraisers ($330/$10,000)
26. Seriously track fertility each month so I can have a child (3/12)
27. Plan a birthday party for Jason, Aaron and Alyssa (1/3)
28. Make/eat breakfast at least 5 times a week (23/260)
29. Pray for 15 mins a day (8/365)
30. Make a weekly budget with Jason and stick to it (0/52)


bolded is being worked on
red is not going to happen
strike out is finished

The LB Story Part Five

The Pre op diet from Hell..... or so I thought.

The pre op diet is required because we being fat people, have fat....with the fat it collects around organs, and since they have to move your liver out of the way to do the surgery, they want as little fat as possible around your liver. The pre op diet helps to shrink the fat....

The pre op diet our doctor had us on was as follows.

breakfast: 1 egg and 1 piece of toast
lunch: 1 protein shake
dinner: sensible foods
a few hours after dinner: protein shake

Well, we bought Vanilla muscle milk, thinking, we can add chocolate flavoring and or make all sorts of smoothies with it....
that stuff was G.R.O.S.S.

I gaged on it with every smoothie I made. The peanut butter smoothie wasn't bad till you got to the after taste. UGH.

We tried Strawberry EAS.
NASTY
Even Jason couldn't do it, and he has a strong tongue that can tolerate lots of gross stuff....like liquid medicine and nasty protein shakes.

Then we ended up with Special K premixed shake, less protein but do-able. Until I finished the whole one, and had the after tastes, and it was gross again.

I would cry almost everyday because I didn't feel like I could do it, the diet part wasn't all that bad, but the shakes *gag*

So I modified my diet, I did no protein shakes.....and sensible lunches instead.....i got over it. lol.

I did for real cry EVERY DAY. lol.....it was bad. Poor Jason. I love him so much for putting up with my crying. lol.

The day before our surgery was our one year anniversary. And luckily it was the one day we could cheat on our diets and eat whatever we wanted.

We went to Golden Corral (because we figured after all said and done we will never eat a buffet again).....we I was excited to get my food on. I made the usual huge salad I always made, and got my chicken .... I make a big chicken salad then go back for dinner then dessert. I began eating, and I didn't even get half way through it when I realized that I was way too full to even go back for regular food....WHAT? my stomach had shrunk a little because of the preop diet.

That night we went to Chilis with friends and ate and we shared our new traditional white molten lava cake.

We were sooooooo full it was horrible.

As of midnight though, we were unable to eat or drink anything......and so the day of surgery is next.

The LB Story Part Four

Surgeon Consult.
Oct 18th,2010
We went to Dallas for our Surgeon consult. I was for sure that since I couldn't get my PCP to clear me the Surgeon would say no....no lapband for Layla.
Getting to the office, we were in a group setting, there were several people there who like us needed to schedule their appts, there was a woman there with her husband who just had lapband the day before our appt. And there was a lady who was there just for information, she hadn't had any meetings, consults or anything up to this point.
In the group meeting, we were greeted by an advocate who had lapband done three years before. She lost over a hundred pounds and is now in the "maintenance" process. She explained she is keeping her weight off herself, there is no saline in her band to give her restriction, so she is doing it on her own.
After the advocate went through the do's and don'ts of lapband, pre and post operation diets and any questions we had, we went one on one with the surgeon.
In the office, we were weighed, and our date of surgery was scheduled. We had the choice of two dates, November 8th or November 22nd.
Our wedding anniversary is the 7th of Nov and having the surgery on the next day would put a damper on our celebration, because we would be in our pre op diet.....or if we waited for the 22nd we would then be on a post op liquid diet for Thanksgiving. Being my choice, I chose the 8th.
Choosing the date was fun and all, but I was still convinced that the doctor would not operate on me because of my diabetes.
Dr Marsden came in and proceeded to tell me how he would still operate on me as long as my sugars were not over 400 on the day of surgery. He was saying that Diabetes basically kills your metabolism and that if i tried to lose weight right now it would be an uphill battle.
He was very laid back and easy to talk to. He made me feel really comfortable and eased my mind. He also thought it was cool Jason and I wanted to go together, when everyone else in our lives freaked out saying we needed to stagger our days so we can take care of each other.
We went home from the appointment with the surgeon with a week before our two week pre op diet was to begin.....eeeeek.....it was closer than I realized.

Thankful Thursdays - GlamLife Linkup

I am a avid fan of a young mother/wife from the midwest. She always has the funnest posts, and I covet her mothers style and grace and gifts at holidays, ha ha...you should take a look sometime her name is Whitney and has the cutest kid....not that we know each other, but, it is fun to read and pretend we are best friends, ha ha...
Well with all that said, she is doing a Thankful Thursday link up for the month of November. Now I am a bit late, so I will be starting with this Thursday and go ahead and join in. I have a lot to be thankful for!

Thankful Thursday

1. My husband - he is a man after God's own heart. He is a strong leader for my family, he is fair and kind and sweet. He makes sure to tell me daily he loves me, and will sacrifice anything he has for my happiness.

2. Family - Between my sisters who always lend a hand when they can, to Aunts Uncles and Cousins, I always have someone who is willing to help me out at any point for any reason.

3. God's Grace - to know it is new every morning, is amazing.

4. Jason's job - not only for the fact he has one, but because of his job we had the insurance to do the lapband, he provides for our family allowing me to stay home, and he gets to work from home so I get to see him more than most wives get to see their husband.

5. Holidays - No matter how crappy life got as a kid, the holidays sparked happy times, traditions, normality that I crave to this day. I think of the holidays and go into the lists of things we did as a kid from watching the parade and making stuffing for thanksgiving to staying up late on Christmas Eve with candles flickering everywhere, watching Christmas movies and wrapping gifts..... I need this stuff like I need air.

The LB Story Part Three

On October 8th, True Results submits our paperwork to our insurance. Expecting a month or two before they would send an actual approval TR called and let us know they sent it and would call when there was an approval. TWO HOURS LATER they call and said we have approval from our insurance.
Now the ball is rolling high speed.
The next week we get busy getting his X Ray, Blood work and my cardiac clearance. The blood work came back for me and TR required me to get a PCP clearance because my sugars were high. They said without clearnnace I probably wouldn’t get to have lapband, without controlled sugars, wounds do not heal well…..I got sad.
I went to my PCP and she flat out told me she would not clear me, and then told me to go to overeaters anonymous.
She told me horror stories she has heard about. She told me that my lapband doc probably didn’t give me the correct blood tests. So instead of approving me, she ordered more testing, upped my metformin, and told me to come back in two months.
So what do I do??? I called my old PCP who is basically a pill pusher and who I knew would approve me….I talk to his nurse, she said the doc does like lapband and I should make an appointment.
I decided to wait and talk with the surgeon before trying to get around my current PCP decision.
Isn’t the point of the lapband is to get healthy and get rid of diabetes?
arg the pain of it all.
I got worried about getting approved, but I have always been ok with Jason getting it even if I didn’t….but still wanted to talk to the surgeon first.
I had to go in on Oct 18 for an echo stress test to see my mitral valve prolapse, and come to find out they cleared me because they didn’t even see MVP. Woohoo!
Next up Surgeon consult.

The LB Story Part Two

We go to Jason's lapband consultation. They take us back into the room, we watch a dvd about what lapband was and then we talked to a consultant.
As the consultant asked Jason to voice any questions, he had mentioned how I was on the fence so I can wait and talk with my gyno. True Results checks our insurance benefits....and with the crazy things insurances have people to do get lapband....psychologist reviews dietitian consults, 6 months of other dietary treatments..... our insurance only required a 40 bmi and over the age of 18.
Trying to convince me to jump on the bandwagon.....The consultant said that most of my causes of infertility could probably be chalked up to my weight. And she also said the running joke is that the lap band is nicknamed "fertility band" because it helps get women healthy enough to be able to conceive. She gave the personal story of her sister who had lapband, got pregnant within a few months, and then had the baby, all the time still losing weight and having a healthy baby...
I was still not 100% comfortable, so instead of Jason going ahead with the medical consult; we rescheduled both of us (me "just in case") for after my gyno procedure that way I could talk with him.
I go to my Gynos appointment on September 13th. Have the Sonohystogram. And then has the consult with the Gyno with his findings. He explains to me that my ovaries look like super chocolate chip cookies, between the eggs that are in there and the fibroids......The doc said I am in the beginning stages of polycystic ovaries. He says best thing to do is control my diabetes, and lose weight. I then ask him about lapband. He was all for it. He wasn't going to suggest clomid till after I lose a little weight.
Two days after the gyno appointment, we have our lapband medical appoitmtent. I tell them that I want lapband, everyone is excited.
Our insurance doesn’t require any testing from us, but True Results does. We have a breathing test done, and I pass. Jason doesn’t so TR asks him to go get a breathing treatment, and with that, blood work and XRays. From me, they want the blood work, cardiac clearance and that’s it. (The cardiac clearance is because I have been diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse as a kid, which will require antibiotics)
In the next few weeks, Jason has two sleep studies, finds out he has slight sleep apnea, and if he loses weight it should go away (His Cpap machine will only be with him until a few weeks after the surgery)

is it mine...or does yours do it too?

We live in an apartment. It is a handicap apartment. We have the very fashionable metal bars in our bathroom.
Instead of taking the time to put the toilet paper on the tp holder my husband utilizes the hand rails as the tp holder.
BUT that's not the worst of it....
When the roll is just about gone my husband will deem it unusable and grabs another roll. So at any given time we will have two or three rolls out at one time.
Dumb.
I end up being the person to use up the last sheets on the discarded roll.......
*sigh*

The LB Story Part One

August 2010
I made the declaration here on my blog that I wanted to lose 30 pounds during my 30th year.
Mid-month, Jason's coworker had lapband surgery.
Almost end of the month I see my gyno, had a follow up pap smear due to an abnormal one. Gyno said that i needed to come back to his office for a sonohystogram to check for possible infertility causes. September appointment is set.
About the same time as my gyno appointment, Jason sees a billboard for lapband.....he sets his consultation.
Jason had discussed with me his feelings about lapband, and he left the offer on the table whether or not I felt that it would be a good choice for me.
I have several friends that have had some kind of gastric surgery to lose weight. So the idea wasn't foreign to me. I just never thought I would be in a spot where either I could afford it, or if we had the kind of insurance that would cover it.
Because Jason's appointment for his consultation was before my gyno appt…I was unsure how to make a choice on whether or not I wanted to pursue the idea of lapband. My reasons for wanting to talk to my gyno first were....
1) Gyno told me that he would want to do the sonohystogram then talk to me about putting me on clomid.
2) How would he feel about lapband and me carrying a baby in the future?

30 in 30 September/October update

1. Lose "30" pounds. (3.5/30)
2. Get my diabetes under control (0/12)
3. Visit my grandmother at least twice a month (0/24)
4. Read three books for leisure (0/3)
5. Complete three bible studies (0/3)
6. Complete 30 sewing projects (1/30)
7. Learn 3 new crafts (0/3)
8. Complete 30 new scrapbook pages (0/30)
9. Do 30 random acts of kindness (30/30) - helped a family out for the whole month of September, and it looks as if it will continue on for months, also is continually helping a single teenage mom, plus other small random acts...
14. Plan a Christmas gift exchange for Jason's side of the family
15. Have a "sister night" with Veida and Shayda three times (0/3)
16. Learn to make homemade pie crust
17. Learn to make yeast rolls
18. Blog twice a week (2/104)
19. Make caramel apples
19. Get a pair of glasses
20. Go to a pumpkin patch
21. Shop on Black Friday
22. Start a new tradition for Thanksgiving and Christmas (0/2)
23. Have two date nights a month (2/12)
24. Activate and use Etsy Account
25. Raise $10,000 for church in fundraisers ($330/$10,000)
26. Seriously track fertility each month so I can have a child (0/12)
27. Plan a birthday party for Jason, Aaron and Alyssa (1/3)
28. Make/eat breakfast at least 5 times a week (6/260)
29. Pray for 15 mins a day (8/365)
30. Make a weekly budget with Jason and stick to it (0/52)


bolded is being worked on
red is not going to happen
strike out is finished

Thirty Flirty and Thriving.

This is a list of 30 things I would like to accomplish during my 30th year. Each month on the 13th (the day I was born) I will update you on my status of each goal.

1. Lose "30" pounds. (0/30)
2. Get my diabetes under control (0/12)
3. Visit my grandmother at least twice a month (0/24)
4. Read three books for leisure (0/3)
5. Complete three bible studies (0/3)
6. Complete 30 sewing projects (0/30)
7. Learn 3 new crafts (0/3)
8. Complete 30 new scrapbook pages (0/30)
9. Do 30 random acts of kindness (0/30)
10. Go on a cruise
11. Complete 12 monthly flylady challenges (0/12)
12. Make a control journal
13. Send out Christmas cards
14. Plan a Christmas gift exchange for Jason's side of the family
15. Have a "sister night" with Veida and Shayda three times (0/3)
16. Learn to make homemade pie crust
17. Learn to make yeast rolls
18. Blog twice a week (0/104)
19. Make caramel apples
19. Get a pair of glasses
20. Go to a pumpkin patch
21. Shop on Black Friday
22. Start a new tradition for Thanksgiving and Christmas (0/2)
23. Have two date nights a month (0/12)
24. Activate and use Etsy Account
25. Raise $10,000 for church in fundraisers ($0/$10,000)
26. Seriously track fertility each month so I can have a child (0/12)
27. Plan a birthday party for Jason, Aaron and Alyssa (0/3)
28. Make/eat breakfast at least 5 times a week (0/260)
29. Pray for 15 mins a day (0/365)
30. Make a weekly budget with Jason and stick to it (0/52)

New decade.

So, I am 30.

I thought it would be easy to be 30. I didn't think I would freak out about it.

I remember when my mom turned 30, that day she was helping some friends put together their wedding reception in the apartments club house. When we got her to come back to the apartment for birthday cake, I can just remember her crying and crying as we sang.....she was not the happiest person about turning 30.

The other night, laying in Jasons lap, I mentioned something about being 30, and trading me in for a newer model, and it hit me.... I.am.turning.THIRTY!

How behind am I in life.
I am living in an apartment, just got married, terrible credit, no kids of my own........I am behind.

So this year I am going to try and make major strides to get my life in order. They say 30 is the new 20......so I have lots to do.
Following this post, I will make my 30/30 list. 30 things I want to do in my 30th year......

30 will be wonderful. I will make it wonderful.

A weeks worth of stories.

Today I will be a married woman for four months....and counting.

All this week, I am going to tell a few of the horror stories and regrets from my wedding. Why dwell on the sad things??? because I am trying to get over it...and like a death or tragedy, you must follow the stages of grief....and I feel that if I can get it out of my mind, down on paper (or in this case a blog....) then I can still have the event as a memory, but I can stop dwelling about it in my head.....

So....that's going to be this week......

Despite the regrets...I know this one thing for sure, my wedding day was the happiest day of my life, and I do not for one minute regret my decision to marry Jason, and becoming "Mrs. Weaver"

Stay tuned.


***Update on 9/11/2012***

I just imported all my blogs to this one address, so anything you read after this date is my "new"blog. all this was imported from laylafrances.blogspot.com which no longer exists.

January 2010 Dinner

We had dinner at Texas Roadhouse, and when Ainsley saw the deer head she would just reach for it, so Jason thought she would like to pet it, and held her up to it. She liked it, and wanted to keep petting him.....Jason's arm got tired.

January 2010 The Cat

Ainsley loves Layla's cat, and was more than willing to share the bathtub with him, but Layla made him go away......afterwards, all Ainsley would say "Cat, bubbles, Cat,bubbles"

January 2010 Mall

This was Jason, Layla and Ainsley's first trip to the mall together. We went down to the play area and let Ainsley go to town playing with the other kids. Then we went and rode the carousel or as Ainsley calls it "horsey".

We have been back several times to the mall, and each time this is what Ainsley says "play" "horsey" "cookie".

We go play at the playground, buy a cookie then go to the carousel.

December 2009 Christmas Party

Ainsley was soooo excited to be sitting in a big girl car seat (It was my friends carseat she left in the car.) That same day we went to Alyssa school for her class Christmas Party, Alyssa likes to show off Ainsley.

November 2009 Roadtrip

In November we took a roadtrip to Houston for Jason's Grandmothers birthday party. Ainsley came with us, and we had to stop at a gas station just becasue it looked like the coolest place in the world. We were right. It was, here Ainsley and I are with Bucee..... If you are ever headed down to Houston, you have to have some beaver nuggets, oh so good.


All that excitement wore Ainsley out.....nap time.

Here it is.....10 days late.

Well, I have been thinking and thinking and thinking for the past ten days......on what my new years resolution would be.
I just got married, so as Jason and I discussed, I was going to work on getting pregnant this year. I am about to be 30.....which in normal terms, is not old.....but, in baby having, to me..... is. ONLY because, I like to think ahead...and I do the kind of thinking like, if I had a baby now, when I the kid is 20 I will be 49, and if I have to wait a few years to have another one, It would be more like, if I had a baby when I am 35, when that kid is 20 I will be 55.
Those ages are not bad, and I know since I have not experienced those ages, I am sure I will still feel young, BUT....Jason is also 6 years old than me, so I have to think about his ages when our kids reach a certain age...blah blahblah...
So my resolution was going to be, make a baby.
But before I was figured out what I wanted to blog about, and made my final decision for the new year....I went to the girly doctor to get things checked on. After talking to him, letting him know I am ready to have a baby, and get things rolling on the medical end, he wanted to do some blood work, just to see how my insides are functioning as a whole.
Everything seemed normal, except.....my....blood sugar levels.
Lynn, his sweet nurse, called me on Friday, and was telling me about the results of the testing. She sounded upbeat and happy regarding the thyroid, hormone and blah blah testing, but when she got to the blood sugar, she got quiet, serious, and concerned sounding. She then told me, that the normal levels for blood sugar is 99-120 depending on the fasting and eating.....I had done a 12 hour fast before the test....my sugar level was.......299....(what this means I am not entirely sure, but 200 over the norm does not sound good)... she then demanded my family doctors phone number so she could fax the results to her, and get me an appt. I made my appt for my family doc that same day (I will be seeing her tomorrow).
After getting off the phone with all the doctors, I sat and processed this news. I had been told in the past that I was borderline diabetic, and a low card diet would help correct it. I did it.....for a few months, then lost insurance so I stopped going to the doctor....and then forgot about any of the precautions. Right before the wedding my family doc had told me she was a little concerned about my sugar levels, and I needed to come in and see her....well I had to wait till after the wedding, and eventually it got to be out of sight out of mind.
But now.
With my knowledge of the basics of diabetes, with my knowledge on how diabetes can affect pregnancies, the ability to conceive, the ability to have a normal healthy pregnancy, the ability to deliver a healthy baby.....I am nervous, scared, and sad.
I just wanted this process to go smoothly.
I wanted the doctor to tell me everything is a go, to take prenatal vitamins, and get busy making a baby.
But I am fat. and now. have diabetes (self diagnosed at this moment....but tomorrow my doc will give me the official label I am sure)
So.....with all this knowledge. i am going to declare my new years resolution. Well never mind resolution, I should say...DEMAND.

My new years DEMAND is to....make my body, mind and spirit ready to hold a miracle from God. I am going to get myself ready to have a baby.

This will include all the cliched new years goals like, lose weight and exercise. But I am not doing it just for the "beauty" aspect, I am not doing it just for the "self esteem" aspect. I am doing it so when I have a child inside of me, I won't be selfish and stay fat and unhealthy, I want to be the perfect vessel to carry the children Jason and I are blessed to have together.....

As I sit here like a drug addict and take my last "hit" of Dr Pepper, I feel guilty already. Jason tells me to have it, but I already have the mind set that I am going to have to do a complete turn around, Jason also says I will be harder on myself than the doctor will be. And if that is true, fine so be it.....I just want a baby. (two actually, and preferably not at the same time....lol)

My 2009

Here's a fun survey I'm borrowing from a blog that I am stalking to wrap up 2009...

1. What did you do in 2009 that you had never done before?
Got Married.

2. Did you keep your New Year's Resolutions and will you make more for next year?I am not sure if I kept my new year’s resolution from last year. To tell you the truth I had to go back and research on my blog what it was…..the resolution was to be “more positive”. Thinking back on my year, I can see where I was more positive than I would think I would be, but then there were many times I was the biggest pessimist you have ever met. So I am going to say no….no I was not successful in keeping last year’s resolution, because even when I had a positive outlook, it wasn’t because I was keeping in mind the resolution I made.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?I knew a few people who had babies, but Stephanie comes to mind. She is my brother-in-law’s girlfriend (and hopefully I can one day call her sister in law). She gave birth to Kristen Lynn Martinez Weaver. He is a doll baby.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not anyone super close….but the best friend of the brother in law mentioned in Q3 passed away, I knew him, but he wasn’t super close. Not to mention the millions of “famous” people who died, namely The King of Pop (not that we were close or anything….lol)

5. What places have you visited?
We went to Houston a few times.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Organization. But I have lacked that since 1980. I’m just sayin’.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched in your memory and why?
Besides my wedding date of 11/07/09, I would have to say May 31st (I had a personal breakthrough in my personal spiritual journey) and June 22nd (the night Jason officially proposed)

8. What was your biggest achievement this year?Again, besides my wedding……lol.

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?In February I got really sick, I was down and out for two weeks, and it took almost a month to get fully back to 100%. But I luckily stayed well for the rest of 2009 (If you don’t count the multiple boils I had throughout the year)
Christmas Eve I slipped on ice in front of JC Pennys at the mall, and busted my knee, hurt my shoulder, and cracked my cell phone….

10. What was the best thing you bought?
Besides wedding rings for the wedding I haven’t ever mentioned before….lol. I would have to say the payments towards the Suburban we took over payments for.

11. Where did most of your money go?
Paying bills, eating out (we do too much of that) and the wedding.

12. What song will always remind you of 2009?A few of the BlackEyedPeas songs like Boom Boom Pow and I’ve Got a Feeling.

13. What do you wish you would have done more of?Organizing.

14. What do you wish you would have done less of?
Being Lazy

15. What was your favorite TV program?
I L.O.V.E. Dexter. It is morbid, and disturbing, but it is good in vigilante kind of way.
Big Love
Supernanny
White Collar
The Unit (Shhhh don't tell Jason, I act like I hate it)

16. What was the best book you read this year?
I read a few books this year, but for the life of me I can’t remember the titles to any of them, not that they were not good books, just…..I can’t remember.

17. What was your favorite film of the year?
We saw Sherlock Holmes, that was good…..and I am sure we saw more movies, but I can’t think of any of them off hand…..I just rented Julie and Julia, I didn’t see it in the theater, but it was released in 2009, so that is a good one too. (Sad to say I have yet to see New Moon yet…)

18. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
On my birthday Jason Aaron and I went shopping at the mall, ran around a little bit, and then that night Veida and Jason invited a small group of friends and family over to the new Dave and Busters in Arlington and we hung out, ate dinner, and a few people played games. Then after that all the kids went home and then some of us adults went to karaoke.
I turned 29.

19. What political issue stirred you the most?None off hand, but political things in general haven’t been sounding too stable lately.

20. Who was the best new person you met?
I have met only a few new people this year, a few people from Jason’s job, and the family I started babysitting for, so they are all the best. lol