Cleaning

Things I like about cleaning

Vacuum lines in the carpet
Getting rich (I found $1.23 in change)
Listening to my zune
Having all the dishes available when it is time to cook
The feeling of peace

Things I DO NOT like about cleaning

People stepping on my vacuum lines
Cleaning out a clogged vacuum
Not getting to watch tv like I really want to
Knowing other people will come in and trash the place
Being the only one cleaning

My Princess Jasmine

Jason's neice came over and requested that she learned how to do "websites" Jason being a programmer was teasing that he would teach her, but it wasn't what she had in mind.

Jasmine is so stinkin cute! I hung out with her on Tuesday while her sister got her two front teeth pulled. Well, Jasmine has never used a real computer, so this was her first time on to use a mouse. I taught her "webistes" and she caught on fast.
She loved noggin.com. I was trying to find some interactive preschool kind of sites, because I have worked hard with her in teaching alphabet. I taught her how to spell her first and last name, cat, dog and mom....however she isn't really recognizing her letters.....bummer, although I am trying!

We have a good time!

Am I An Oxymoron?

Okay...Tuesday night....I have to watch.... Now I have watched all five seasons, and I have come to the conclusion that these two people scare the holy CRAP out of me.....

I watch the show after I have it recorded, because i can't stand waiting through the commercials.....bleck.....but as I watch it, I am normally eating something....drinking a soda....and laying on the couch.....while I am relaxing...I am thinking, ok probably talking to the television telling the contestants what babies they are and what wimpy and whinny people they are.....

Tonight I got to thinking....

If I was on the show, I WOULD be the one crying, and complaining and acting like a complete baby....I can't handle working out (obviously) I hate sweating.....and cry in confrontation....so...does this make me my own oxymoron....walking contradiction? ha ha...

I would love to be on the show, if being on the show means I become that size 8 I have always wanted to be.... Yes size 8...that is a dream....but according to a chiropractor I once saw, not a reality!

The Chiropractor, told me (while I was in the middle of a low carb diet....actually the only diet I sincerely tried, and was a bit successful at....) that no matter how much weight I lose, I will always be around a size 12-14 because I have the epitome of "birthing hips" (which has very little cartilage in it, and the same doctor telling me I will probably need to new hips by the time I am 50.....it was a day full of positive news!!!)

Anyways, is it ridiculous, that I can eat and lounge while all these people on this show are changing their lives that used to be just like mine...LAZY?

New Discovery

Today I learned that Ainsley has found her tounge. She is sticking it out.....and as she sticks it out she will bring things to her mouth and lick them rather than chew on them...it is cute.

Today

Thngs I loved about today:

Frozen Pizza makes for an easy dinner
Emails that don't inculde spam
Today is Friday, means tomorrow is Saturday
Three of the five things I have on ebay are selling
Small chit chat that doesn't include me barking orders....with Aaron
Frozen Coke Slush right out of the freezer...be careful it expands quick!
Expanding Coke Slush mess and me laughing
Taiko trying to eat peanut butter......he loves it
Me accidently scarring Taiko and him shoving his face in his water bowl....
Dreaming about 72 degree weather
Comments on my blog about the travel swap....I GET TO DO IT!! YAY!
Blog Reading......LOVE IT!

Thats about it for the day......not too bad.

Songs that say it all.....

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

I heard this song tonight.....dang Delilah.....This song reminds me of my mother and my issues with her.....I know I need to get over them, but it is a healing process....therapy might help some....but...you know how that is. *sigh* I know I can't blame anyone for my issues, but dang it there have been some contribution that didn't need to be there....and for that, I have more issues....does that make sense.... oh well....

Things on my mind this Wednesday

Okay.....so another day.....

A few things on my mind....so here goes.

Heath Ledger died.....from who knows what......they say drugs, they say accident....whatever it was, he was a year older than me...scarry.
I fell in love with his exotic accent and bad boy persona in "10 Things I Hate About You". Not an oscar worthy movie, but fun for the age I was....ok ok I will admit, I still like it!
Sad.

Feeling a bit weird about housework right now. I worked really hard yesterday, felt like I created a peaceful inviting home yesterday. When Jason got home, dinner was finished, smelly good candles were setting a peaceful ambiance, I made a pineapple upside down cake, Aaron mastered some multiplication facts because we worked on it, downstairs bathroom was cleaned, floors were vacuumed........but.......none of it was noticed. I understand that my daily doings will not be praised cosntantly....ok, so I guess my question would be.....How does a professional stay at hom mom (in my case non mom non wife) keep her drive up and spirits up to be miticulously on top of it all???

I have expressed this before (it might be in my blog on myspace) but...I have the OCD personality that I get anal about something, but I give up on it if I know I am not going to be as perfect as I want to be......I want to be OCD despite not meeting my goal. I want to be organized and scheduled to a fault....does that make me bad? lol, WHO ON EARTH WISHES THEY WERE OCD??? That right there should make me the craziest person I know.

Doggy Cuddles

Takio is our dog.
He thinks he is the boss. Here lately, since Julie and her crew has left, he has been the boss dog...so my squishy tummy is his throne, forget about dog beds and cushions....Aaron took this picture for me.....this is how Takio sits, and if he isn't there he is snuggled against the backs of my legs....go figure.

Here is Aaron me and Taiko....Aaron thinks it is cool that Taiko is yawning in the picture. Aaron kept pretending to yawn to get Taiko to yawn. According to Aaron, yawns are contagious, even to dogs.

Obssession

Okay so I have a new obsession.....

Thats right, I am a blog troll......I have learned how to subscribe to blogs, and now, I have over 30 blogs that I view daily. I know how to refresh them, just in case the computer hasn't grabbed the new post.

I am creepy.

I am a stalker. (without the stalkerish tendencies)

I enjoy reading about the lives of women who I think are creative, funny and the kinds of people I want to be like. Be flattered if you are on my list, because I think the world of you. A world that is different obviously since we have more than likely never met.......but I think you are someone to admire, and I love to read about your creations, about your fun kids, about your do's and don'ts etc etc.

Thank you for sharing your lives with the world of blog trolls, you upper middle class church going entrepreneur stay at home moms.......all 30 of you!

P.S. That Troll is ANOTHER Photoshop creation......My New Years goal is almost met, lol

First Time For Everything

And so, my first attempt with photoshop.......I decided to document Veida's birthday lunch....we laughed and laughed and laughed at this....it is a true story!!!! And check out her eyelash and eyebrow.......too funny!

Politics from a 3 year old.

With all the political things going on right now, it reminds me of a little boy named Carson.

Carson was 3 when I worked at the Children's Courtyard. He was an overachiever, dramatic, know it all. I blame his parents. His father was a lawyer, and mom a over pampered stay at home mom. Carson was at the time an inspiring actor, he had starred in a few Barney episodes and made sure that every kid knew that he had met Barney, and much like Santa, he spoiled the truth that Barney had a person inside and isn't really a dinosaur. His parents put Carson in day care for most of the day so the mom could spend time with friends and spa treatments......but that isn't the point.

Well one day Carson came up to me and the following conversation happened:

Carson: Miss Layla, I know what Democraps and Repelicans are.

Me: Oh really, what are they?

Carson: Democraps are people who like to take your money. And Repelicans like to eat it.

Me: (laughing) who told you this?

Carson: (angry at me laughing) My dad told my mom, and I was giving attention to his story.


That was the funniest thing ever told to me regarding politics!

New Year (Part Two)

4.the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.

Thats my choice in the definition of resolution.

Firmness of purpose.

This year my purpose in life is to be more honest with myself. Sure I have many goals....(and they are posted to the right of this blog, for the world to see....) but I can't swear to myself that every last one of them will be fulfilled, that will be against my purpose.......and thus, I will be less firm in standing with the resolution.....

The Definition (Part One)

res·o·lu·tion /ˌrɛzəˈluʃən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[rez-uh-loo-shuhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
a formal expression of opinion or intention made, usually after voting, by a formal organization, a legislature, a club, or other group. Compare concurrent resolution, joint resolution.
2.
a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to do something.
3.
the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.
4.
the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.
5.
the act or process of resolving or separating into constituent or elementary parts.
6.
the resulting state.
7.
Optics. the act, process, or capability of distinguishing between two separate but adjacent objects or sources of light or between two nearly equal wavelengths. Compare resolving power.
8.
a solution, accommodation, or settling of a problem, controversy, etc.
9.
Music.
a.
the progression of a voice part or of the harmony as a whole from a dissonance to a consonance.
b.
the tone or chord to which a dissonance is resolved.
10.
reduction to a simpler form; conversion.